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Location: ND, US    Member since: February 15th, 2002    Profile views: 13720
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Myself, and Me

Well... Here I am... Yeah, I don't know much HTML so excuse me if it ends up screwing up, bleh I did decently so far didn't I? No *tear*? Anyway... I'm going to talk about myself here, doubt you'll stick with me till the end, but I don't care, I'm bored and want to talk to someone, even if they aren't listening.


Well I'm Mystery incase you didn't notice (¬¬); Well what do you want to know? Well to bad I'm saying want to :)


I'm really depressed... I have been for a few years now, it's getting better, the light is there, but I don't have a motive to get to it and I'm getting to lost trying to find it alone. Though still my suicidal thoughts have gone down, my crying has gone down, my feeligns have gotten happier, etc etc. Uh.. I've got outlets and they really are my only way to escape the MANY problems of reality. I've got writing, video games, guitar and... Listening to music type stuff o-0...

Well... Writing is the most pursued outlet for me at this point in time. I try and write regularly... I ussually just write poems and stuff, but I'll occasionally pull out a story and work on it... Then my journal in the thread.. But that's irrelevant, look there if you want it ¬¬... I've been writing for a year, and I'd like to think I'm making progress, but I really can't say that -_-;; Uh.. Video games... They really help if I'm pissed and want to kill stuff, or when I'm just bored out of my mind. (Favourites include...Guitar.. Started that like 3 weeks ago XD Not great at all, no where near it.. But it's fun to strum around randomly making up stuff, or the few songs that I do actually know... XD. And listening to music.. I like music alot... It's great, awsome, schw33t.. And stuff. Favourite bands are: Coheed and Cambria, Thrice, Thursday, Saosin, Brand New, Dashboard Confessionals, New Found Glory, Opeth, Descendents, Modest Mouse (like 3 songs), Green Day(3 or 4 songs)... So there you go..

Life is emotional hell and, I'm not a fan of it, bleh I don't know what to say in here without making it seem like forever, that's something I don't want to do.. So I'll end it now, if you read through it all, I don't know why.. But... I don't know what to say... You're cool, but bored I'm guessing -_-;;


Random Links and Other Stuff
Is subject to change, don't know what else to put here -_-;;

--Links

My Writings

Journal
Messed up first post XD Long read, but meh, that's my journal.
Poetry
Not great stuff in the beggining, I suggest reading the new stuff if you want to read any of it -_-;;
Lin's Adventure (Story)
Well, one story.. Won't ever be completed I bet.
Rainbow Six 3 Fanfic
Won't ever be completed I bet either -_-;; Still decent starting points..
The Dragon's Tears
First story, and longest, meh kinda fond of it, but it sucks and won't ever be completed either I'm guessing -_-;;

Other's Writings

DarkAngelsRhapsody's Poetry
She's a good writer, and has alot of good poems in there...
Fayded's Poetry
Seems good, but s/he has only posted a couple poems...
MerylSnake's Poetry
Good writer... And stuff...
DarkLiterature's Poetry
He's a great writer, good vocabulary and wht not.
BMXPro's Poetry
He's a good writer... Yeah :)
Shonic98's Poetry
I don't know if she's new or not, but she's got a completely different style than the majority of the people in the Lounge.
noob N master's Poetry
Just... Bleh.
dave_yin's Poetry
Great writer, love his stuff... Majority of it is in his previous thread which there is.. Handily another link to in the first post XD
dave_yin's The Only Talent
One of the 2 stories I'm putting up of my own will, and this really is a good fantasy story, didn't get far thought -_-;;
goldensteelix's Way of the Samuira
My other story suggestion.. Great one, to bad it's down for revision -_-;;

If I missed you, or you want to be added PM me :)

NeoFriends

Gotenks992: Uh.. Hates me -_-;;SamusX10:He uh... hates me too, and got really pissed off at t3h decisions I've made lately I think...TheLord968: Wacky and strange, probably doesn't hate me...Vitrual Dream: We'll, relatively new 'friend', but he seems really coolbLuE_PiNaY_LvEr: Been talking to her for awhile, she's cool ^^;; Dark Literature: He's cool, good writer, but I don't think he likes me much, meh.DarkAngelsRhapsody: She's cool, but I don't think she likes me, probably hates meh -_-;; Good writerdave_yin: He's really nice, but he left >< Hope he comes back soon... Good Writerhalf_a_pint: Pwned by a little pony! Who that little pony is, while always and forever be a secret...Harvest Moon Girl: Very new NeoFriend, seems really nice.. Can't say to much about her yet..mgs fan: Haven't talked to him in awhile, but still cool guy ^^;;noob N master: OMG |337Rasberri_Ice89: Kinda strange, but cool person ;)Satokasu Suki: Nice, but don't think she likes me much.. -_-;;Shana: Nice person, but hasn't been interested in even talking *sigh*the_solitary_rose:  This guy's cool.. I remember staying up late talking to him and DAR.. Good times...tr33k03:  He's cool.. I guess.WolverineFan03265:  Cool, nice guy.. All started talking about how we live close to each other XD
If I missed you, just PM me...

Stuff I Would Like to Say to People in my Life

--Mom/Stepdad
Well, you've failed as a parent, and in my opinion as an individual. I truly hate you more than almost anyone. I just wish you would notice how my happiness has faded and maybe try and help me, but no.. You've got your own problems right? I should deal with my problems my self right? You disgust me.


--'Her'
Well, I'm beggining to dislike you too now.I can't believe you can't see it in my eyes... It's so... Obvious. But that's faded now, I held my love for you for far to long, to many years and now it is gone.. My life is wrecked because I waited to long, my feelings are lost now. I fell for you, so far... Would've given you anything, but it's gone now, you used to knwo me, and I used to know me, but you don't care now.. I hate that it has come to this, but it has. I just wish you stood by me now, but you despise me now as I despise this world, it isn't fair how this turned out, but this is how it goes... This is how the cards fell, and I just lost it all on a bet I thought I could win... I lost it all *sigh* Just for a chance with you, but it didn't work out, guess me life is a failure now huh? I still am reserved from the inside, now that my world has fallen apart my emotions are just broken again... I loved you, truly I did... I want it back, but you obviously don't.


--'That one beautiful girl'
I wish you knew how beautiful you were, how perfect you were... As perfect as perfect comes, to bad I'm not 'up to par' eh?


--Friend and that loser kid on the bus
I hate your *bleep*ing guts and would kill you if the chance EVER came up without any reprehensions for me... Don't doubt it for a second, I hate you more than anything else in this *bleep*ed up world... You deserve to die more than anything else in this goddamned world.


--Teachers
I really wish you'd notice, I once respected you and put EFFORT into your classes, but there was nothing in return, not a pat on the back or even a word of recognition, it's not worth it... The way this world turns I'll drop out. Hellz, your projects are screwed up, you don't even recognize how much I try before you just put another low B or another C on the damn thing. It's not worth it.


--Myself
Happiness is faded old bud. The rust is clear, the death is among us is obvious. We were overpassed by all that we respected... Guess we've got nothing to live for in our lives, and don't think there's anyone that can change our mind now... Why haven't we ended it yet?

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