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~*When Will I Find you?*~
So, theres another one? A girl sits and watches a new boy hang with his friends. She goes by Rei. She wants to learn about every new guy, everything they are and everything they do. She desperately wants to meet her someone just for her because her life is all ready screwed up. She wants somebody....by her side........"Yo Rei!" She looks and see's her friends calling her. "Hey come here! you seem so bored over there!" "Nah." She says..."I-I wanna stay here just for a little while" "Well alright if you say so." She walks to her class and sees....people. Nobody special, just people. Her heart stung a little. She would see someone new and fall in like....because she would never fall in love that fast. And sometimes when she does fall in like she would fall for the wrong guy. Sure they may be cute, but what would that help if they aren't even very caring? She wanted someone perfect.....well someone perfect for her eyes. "Hey Rei." Says some new guy in her class. She is mostly liked in her class alot of guys like her but don't show it. She's really nice and pretty enough to be likable but........."They aren't the someone just for me..." She keeps thinking to herself. She says hi back and be nice as usual, but inside her, her heart sighs. Everytime.....she thinks......everytime I would have to trick or force my heart into liking a certain guy..........I never..........fell-in-love.........she wanted to cry but she couldn't.........she would never cry infront of anyone except god. Or on special occasions.....she giggled to herself when she thought of that making everyone give her weird looks. She didn't care. She wanted to be weird. She wanted to be different. Because she wanted to find someone who would love her for her and not by her looks. To love her because she her....because she's weird....because she's not that smart....because she's not that pretty. Rei smiles alot but never shows the sad face her heart alls pains her to show. She wants everyone around her to be happy first.....and maybe later she can find her own happiness. But she keeps makin all these mistakes about love. For instance liking a guy when you barely know him, and when you find out more, you regret it. She did alot of things she regrets..........and it pained her more..............she thinks about alot of things about love, like Would it last? Would he still love me? Would he love because I'm me or because I'm pretty? Would he cheat on me? Would he break up with me for someone else? Would he dump me because i'm not that popular? Rei knew it herself....she was chosey and very careful. But she has to be.....she can't take another problem......her heart....will crack....but if she doesn't find someone soon.....her heart will crack too. She's so confused. I'm still young how would I know if it would last until marriage? it'z no possible without getting hurt....but I don't want to get hurt.....but I have to find my special someone soon.....*sigh* Rei couldn't take it.....she really couldn't anymore..............she tricks herself, her heart, into thinking she likes a certain guy. But that wouldn't help...it would hurt her more. Rei is very impatient.......very...........I wish I felt that feeling of happiness and desire....to really fall in love.......it must be one of the greatest feelings.....to fall in love with someone......so deeply in love.......and for that someone.......to deeply fall in love with you...........Rei closed her eyes and a small tear ran down her face. She smiled a little, I wanna meet you.......and when I do......I'll hold you tight.......and say....I found you.......the someone I love.......the someone I care for...........the someone just for me............and when I finally have this feeling of love....not like.......but love.........It'll be great since I never felt it before.......never............I want to........because.........I will always love you my special person........not just for my sake...for yours more.......I wanna care for you....be the person that makes you happy......be the person you miss when we're not together.......be the person that think of.........I would never want to hurt you...........I would hold you everytime you needed too and repeat the words I never said to anyone with true feelings.............thoose three special words...........that can change mine and your life.........forever..........
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