// The wind came from your lungs, a hurricane from your tongue //
I am so happy that Paramore are finally releasing their EP, after essentially a whole year since the Farro's left, it's nice to see some amazing songs still coming from the band. They haven't lost it. But then for me that would be impossible, they symbolise more than just a band to me, they are my lifeline. I think it's probably come at the best time, because it's reminded me how much a rely on their music to get me through tough times. Over the last few days I have just generally been listening really closely to lyrics in songs in general, and it's weird you can listen to one song over and over but never notice lyrics, and how you can relate them to parts of your life. Music is LIFE. Just sayin'
*Raises glass* As the title suggests, I am going to give blogging a go again, not 100% sure on what I will talk about, but I will just use it as a place to rant about things that are really getting on my nerves :3
To start off my blog, I think it's about time I told people about me, all the gruesome details ;D So I am Sam, but everyone calls me Sammy, and I am a Marketing and Web Assistant. I am one of those really sad people who loves their job, and cannot wait to go into work, but there are reasons for this. Before working where I am now, I went to college, and I can honestly say it was the worst experience of my life. Loads of people would say different, but that's because they evidently went there for a doss. I got bullied in my first year, made to feel worthless, and like I was nothing. For about 8 months I was alone, because people who were supposed to be my friends turned on me, leaving me isolated. When people say they are broken hearted, at that time I would have loved to feel like that, but for me I felt nothing. I felt like I was walking along, completely empty, and my whole body felt heavy. Being broken hearted is so much easier because you can at least feel something, feeling nothing is much worse. Luckily I found a way to cope, and that was the the music of the band 'Paramore'.
So after all that I went through, working where I do now has really restored my confidence, and I am a totally different person than I was before. Not only that but working with people who are like minded, really helped me be myself, rather than being what other people wanted me to be. So a few months ago I finally managed to tell the people I work with that I am bisexual, and I was so worried about how people would take it, but everyone I work with is really supportive. It was especially hard because people don't understand how you can like two genders, but that really isn't how it is. I look at it as falling in love with 'people' and their personality, the gender doesn't come into it for me. I thought it was going to be much harder to tell people, but I think because I know who I am now, if someone else can't accept me, it doesn't matter, because I can then just surround myself with people that do.
Wow.. I'm really laying my cards on the table. I think I'll stop there for now, don't wanna overload you all xD