I just want to die. I'm sick of this life, sick of this world. I'd do it myself, but I'm too much of a coward to do it. The doctors can't do anything, I can't do anything. I might as well have been dead since the moment that driver hit us. The pills don't do anything for me, drugs just make it worse. I keep hoping that something comes through my window and strikes me dead. I'm so damn pathetic it's ridiculous.
The world sucks. I suck. I know I do. I don't need everyone telling me that. I hate the world, I'm tired of it. I'm pissed at everything and there's nothing I can do but come on here and vent my frustrations. I can't even do that anymore, it seems. The only thing that's been keeping me going is this hope for Fallout 4, but I don't know if it's really worth it. If the continuation of my life is really just for a game then my life is pathetic and maybe I shouldn't continue on.
Maybe things will get better, but I've been telling myself that lie since my family died.